So I seem to be in a state of flux as to which blog site I want to use. I have MySpace and Facebook accounts, but honestly, I feel like lately I am getting too old to use them, especially for blogging. All I ever seem to see are "youngins" blogging on those.
I even have an old Blogger account, but I let that lapse and I guess I am looking for a fresh start to match my new role in life and a new year coming up. Plus, hopefully everyone who has this URL will be able to view updates, unlike other sites where you have to be logged in to read things.
I am sitting here awake (again!) at 6.02am, Sunday morning. I keep waking up around 3 or 4 am for the past few nights and find it hard (and uncomfortable!) to return to sleep.
I keep having the same nightmare over and over again that I go to let my dog, Sophia, outside and there are deer across the courtyard feeding at a neighbor's bird feeder (which we totally have experienced). I have these dreams where I am yelling for Sophia to get back in the house because I just know that the deer will kick her in the head or otherwise hurt/maim her. The dream that woke me up this morning also included two of my cats (Stella and Isis) sneaking out and not listening when I tried to get them to come in.
Conclusion to these stupid nightmares? Obviously, I must feel like my life is slipping out of my control. That is not unfathomable especially given the fact that I am now both unemployed and due in a couple of weeks. Both things are life-altering events on their own, but tossed in together and it makes for a foundation that does not feel to firm beneath my feet.
I have faith that everything will be fine, and I think I can see that fact coming to light in the dreams as I am trying to regain control by attempting to corral my furkids from the dangers of the wild. =)
Still... this is enough to keep me up at night.
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Wow! I am the first one to comment on your new blog. Yahoo! I understand what you mean by the dreams. I still look at the pictures of Ethan and think to myself how strange it is to know that you are going to have a son soon. I would probably feel the same about the job situation, but at the same time a bit happy that I would not have to work for awhile. Even though I have to pay my bills, I would love to not have to work.
ReplyDeleteI know you will be fine in time. At first it is going to be one of the most challenging times in your life. You can do it though, I know you can. It will come quite naturally and you will be amazed at how much you know already and not have had contact with a baby. You will be fine.
I also have thought recently to switching back to Blogger thing here. I am tired of Myspace for teh reason that it is unpredictable and has so much spyware and garbage on it. We are growing up. lol.